Craving Food and More Food!!!

Well, what a week it has been!!! I went wedding dress shopping last saturday and found my dress of my dreams!! Imust admit its not something i thought i would have picked but i love it!!! Thay are doing a few alterations to it to really suit me and what i want!!! So i am hoping the alterations will come up ok!! I had the actual stylist and designer fit me it was such a good day my sister Tracy came with me. On the saturday i only tried on 2 dresses because we spent so much time fiddling around with the one i am getting so on Tuesday my mum and I went back up to try on a few more to make sure i had made the right decision and what would you know 6 dresses later i chose the one i was getting already!! LOL

On the sunday just gone we were meant to get a puppy for Chloe a little silky terrior crossed with a chauouer ( not sure on spelling) she was so cute!!! Anyway a rot wheeler rolled on her and she died it is just so sad!!!! I was so excited for Chloe and I as she seems to really love animals and this little puppy just looked like it would suit her!! I had a little cry but Ryan said we will look for another one and that we probably were not meant to get that one!! Still very sad though!!!

Last weekend i could have had a free meal if i wanted to but i chose not to as i really did not feel like anything in particular, so i thought i would wait for another 2 weeks before i had my free meal!!
But it is a different story this weekend i am craving sweet things something awful, i got to work today and i work at a pharmacy and we have bags of jelly beans glaring at me say eat me eat me, well the ones on the shelf are easy to resist as they are not open but the girls always have an open packet in the drawer for them to snack on up intil now it has not been a problem until 8.30am this morn and i scoffed down 8 without even thinking!!! I was even telling myself that i was going to have a free meal this weekend as well as next week just to stop my cravings, but i know that would not have worked it would have made it worse as i would have felt like failure and probably went on a binge!!! But I did say STOP to myself and got a pen and paper out and wrote down mu affirmations and said them over and over and rang Ryan and told him how i was feeling!!!! By this stage it was 9.30am and i was due to have morning tea at 10am so we decided to just think my next meal is only half an hour away and to frink heaps of water until then!!! And what do you know it worked!!! I made it through the morning without having anymore jelly beans!!!
Then lunch time came and I was starving again i could not get lunch made quick enough!!! I was like a bear with a sore head!! I ended up having a little extra protein as i was sooo hungry, again i had to realy talk to myself to not eat anymore than my allocated meal but i won and made it through!! Now i am going to win again tonight i am not craving as bad tonight though!!
My weight was 50.5kgs this morn so i have lost 500grams for the week which i think is pretty good.

I have just finished week 5 of my program and have 1 more week until i get an updated program and that cannot come soon enough i am getting a little bored with the current one!! So i amexcited about that!!!

Wedding plans are slowly coming together i am going to organise engagment pary invites tomorrow and get them sent out this week, i am staring to stress a little about it all, but i have to keep telling myself that it will not help only make me have a melt down!!!!

Anyway i am off to have a cup of herbal tea and my fat serve for the day almond paste and whole almonds! YUMMY
Talk again soon


"The only place where your dream becomes impossible is in your own thinking."
Robert H. Schuller

Chelle