A Good Kick Up the BUTT is what you need sometimes

Well the title says it all, i will not go into detail but i am sure the 2 people that gave me this know who they are!!! LOL
I just want to say thank you and now i do realise that i have to be more independent and take control of myself!!!
At the moment i am working on my affirmation and so far so good, not something I want to share yet though until i see how i am at the end of this blitz!!
Kristin has eliminated a couple of things out of my diet as i have come to a bit of a stand still, but i wonder if that has a thing or two to do with my attitude lately, very negative and just being totaly consumed by the scales!! Not a good way to be as I have been making that my soul focus in a way, but these are all things to work on!!! It just gets frustrating when you are doing everything right and exercising really hard and the scales stay the same, but also tom has not come yet it has been 6 weeks and no I am not pregnant i have done two tests to just make sure!! We are definently not trying for another till next year, so a combination of all these things would be adding to the stand still.
I am still in two minds about having my free meal this weekend as i am a little worried about a couple of things, loosing control and having a binge and secondly if i just have a normal free meal will it put me back aswell as the last coup;e of weeks i have had a couple of slip ups, so not sure???

I am really excited about Saturday as my sister and i going to look for wedding dresses in Rocky i really think it will do me good to focus on other things and put my mind off the scales and weight for a bit!! I have picked out a few dresses in mags , but who knows what will look good on me, but so exciting!!!

My goals for the rest of the week are to be more positive and say and write my affirmation a few at least once a day and to exercise with my whole heart in it and to enjoy life and love myself and nuture myself and just think of nice things!!

I had a bit of a melt down at work today i had a big cry due to a few things, work is a bit stressful at the moment and it just got to me and that does not normaly happen and also i ahve been missing my Dad so much lately, i am really teffified in a way of my wedding day as he will not be there to walk me down the asile and to say a beautiful speach like he has done for my other 3 sisters, it just got on top of me and i had a little howl!! The girls were shocked as i normaly am not lke this!! LOL the poor things they did not know what to do!!
But my goodness a cry makes you feel so much better, its nearly like going for a big run and letting everything go, think i may have another one tonight!! Sometimes i think i have not dealt with dad dieing but i suppose it will be like this forever to a certain degree!!

But anyway i am going to leave on a happy note and go and eat my yummy vege omlette that has heaps and heaps of veges in it i am starving!!! So far so good with sticking to the diet changes!!! Finding it a littel tough but nothing i cannot beat!!!! I am going to the body i want and so desire!!!

Chelle